I fooled myself into thinking
That I could navigate your dark waters
And sail winningly into
The harbour of your heart.
But the ruthless winds buffeted
My craft until the mast broke
Leaving me adrift
And the sharp threatening rocks below
Tore at the belly of my boat
Until water stormed in and I sank
Into the cold sea of despair.
I never found my way to the harbour
That I sought so feverishly.
I never knew that it was just a chimera,
A mirage, an epic phantasmagoria.
For craggy cliffs and jagged scapes
Were all that littered your core.
I tucked seeds away in the corners
Of your mouth and prayed furtively
Each night…. Hoping that sweet nothings
Would pour forth at the break of dawn,
Into my eager ear. Yet every morning
You woke unchanged and quizzical,
Spitting the promise of endearments
From between your teeth as you rose
He was bold and I
Could taste life on his sweet lips…
I was tainted now.
Anymore for being
A swirling maelstrom. I was born
Did I have a
Lover patient enough
To find out what was under these
We walk past a sea of blank faces daily
Hoping to one day make eye contact
With someone who will care enough
To see the truth within our souls
And make us come alive.
You were skilled at diminishing me… At first the pieces you excised were small and near insignificant so that I barely missed the parts of myself as they disappeared. But as time went by you grew more forward and greedier, cutting… slicing… carving… until I became limbless. My body disposed of, you held my head eye level with yours and gave me a final kiss and stole my tongue… ripping it from my mouth, leaving me mute. All that remained were my eyes to see you walk away and fragments of my mind to know that you were never coming back.