Well… So much for my anxiety getting better. The addict has bought a new van ( he sold the last SUV) for next to nothing to pay off dealers. I haven’t even bothered to say anything about the utter MADNESS of this decision. I think I have been ignoring it but he got the van today so I have no choice but to accept it now.
He’s already back to drinking once a week this week went to twice. This is even with attending three meetings a week. We all know and have been down this road before. It starts with the drinking and then goes to the crack cocaine. Now he’s mobile and can come and go as he pleases even more so it’s only a matter of time before he starts his shit again.
He bought a manual van and he hasn’t driven manual in YEARS. I’m already foreseeing all manner of catastrophe of driving drunk / high and now in a vehicle which is much huger than anything he had before.
I worry about the dogs what if he hits one of them or damages a wall or one of the other two cars (mine) in the yard. I’m not worried about him dying because those fuckers never die it’s ever one else who has to suffer.
He’s had it less than a day already and is already pissing me off. He was supposed to park in an uncovered area but complained he doesn’t want rain wetting it so she gave up her parking spot under the garage to appease him. Now under the garage the back end of the van is still sticking out a bit and he is already talking about extending the garage… Two posts here and bring out roof here. Am, no.
You barely have it day you haven’t consulted with anyone else living here and you already have plans. Nothing new, “oh he could do what he want”. All the selfish behavior is coming back. The cuss out was close to coming.
Soon enough we will be back in the same position where he will be coming and going at all hours and using again and ha not being able to even sleep because if she locks him out he will be out in the yard making a set of noise to come inside.
I am fed up and it hasn’t even fully started yet. But it will. He didn’t stay in treatment long enough as usual and is already slipping and going to take everyone else along with him.
And while this is supposedly future tripping is it really when you know the inevitability of a situation that has recurred for almost a decade? I think not.